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31 October 2009 @ 01:11 pm

Waste of my time and effort

What's the point of planning something hoping that you and your friends can come together and help each other when no one is around after all the planning and inviting is done?
What's the point in trying to do this when almost EVERYBODY doesn't even sms a reply saying "yes" or "no"?
Is typing that one word too tiring and difficult?
Or is it too expensive?
I'd pay you to reply my sms's, thank you!
This really irritates me.
Where is the basic courtesy?
Basic ettiquete?
I could have gone out to study!
I'd have been out by now.
I wouldn't have gotten to go to all the trouble of getting drinks for you guys after work on his way home.
He could have come right home and gotten his much needed rest.
JUST ONE REPLY, ONE WORD, WILL IT KILL YOU PEOPLE!? GOSH
This makes me wonder why i even bother!?

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30 October 2009 @ 09:34 pm

Day 6 - 30/10/09 9:35Pm

God is not about imagination.
He isn't a make-believe thing that we think about.
We have to be careful of this, cause we must remember the truth that he is real and not to treat him like a mere shadow in our existence.

1Corinthians 2:6- 26 (read up)

"An unbeliever debating a Christian theologian stated that he couldn't imagine that what the Bible says about our resurrection and the restored earth is true. The theologian replied by saying that the problem wasn't the Bible, but his debate partner's imagination."
*Just a quote, not from the verse

Mark 8:22-25

While our relationship with God was restored the moment we accepted Christ, becoming all that we are in Him is a lifelong process.
Don't be a luke-warm Christian and decide that since you are saved and forgiven for all the sins we can sin all that we want.
We are instructed to be the testimony, the salt and light of the world.
Jesus might have worked in our lives in some amazing ways, but there is more renewal to come.
We are all on a journey of restoration.
Some are farther along than others, but none of us are fully restored!
Not while we are still stuck in our sinful, natural bodies on earth.
"We all live between His touches." - Jeff Olson.

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30 October 2009 @ 12:35 am

Day 5 - 29/10/09 12:35Am

I'm tired today...
Though, i really didn't do much i think

Studied in the Day, Mj in the evening, Popeyes at night.

Today, found many verses that give us strength in the Lord and teaching us to trust in Him regardless of the situation.

Qt toady was tough.
Don't understand anything at all so i can't really share what i learnt or experienced today.
But i'm seeking out help from church tomorrow and will share what i learnt and i hope that what i share can serve to inspire my friends in their daily lives too.
I mean, we all go through roughly the same things.. we're all facing the same hormonal influences and problems with ourselves and our relationships with people around us.
Press on in line with God's word.
Things will work out always!

Thats all for tonight.
Dead beat.
Amen

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29 October 2009 @ 08:40 am

Day 5 - 29/10/09 8:40Am

It's morning now... migraine migraine!

I still cannot fathom how things worked out.
But my God is a BIG GOD that can work in QUIET or LOUD ways, BOOMZ!

like Psalm 100 says

Psalm 100

A Psalm of Thanksgiving.
¹ Make a joyful shout to the LORD, all you lands!
² Serve the LORD with gladness;
         Come before His presence with singing.
³ Know that the LORD, He is God;
         It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves;^[^a^]
         We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.

⁴ Enter into His gates with thanksgiving,
         And into His courts with praise.
         Be thankful to Him, and bless His name.
⁵ For the LORD is good;
         His mercy is everlasting,
         And His truth endures to all generations.
We should be
-Joyful
-serve with gladness
-know God
- place God first above ourselves
-entering His gates with thanksgiving and praise
-thankful and bless his name
- assured of God's goodness
-aware that God's mercies are everlasting
-confident that His truth endures forever

¹⁰ They shall neither hunger nor thirst,
      Neither heat nor sun shall strike them;
      For He who has mercy on them will lead them,
      Even by the springs of water He will guide them.
(Isaiah 49:10)

It is a bliss to love the Lord.
Love is a gift that should not be undermined.
Be thankful for what the Lord has given us and praise Him at all times of the day.
If he provides for the poor and for the sparrow, what more for us!?
Don't take God for granted,
THANK GOD,
PRAISE GOD ALWAYS, NOW AND FOREVER

AMEN

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29 October 2009 @ 12:13 am

Day 4 - 29/10/09 12:14Am.

I've got a HUGE burden off my chest.
I feel liberated!
Don't get me wrong haha you're not the burden.
It feels like i've heaved 1,000,000 TONNES of weights off my chest!
God is great!
It's a wonder how he made things fall into place.
I really thought and hoped i wouldn't have to face you...
But i guess maybe it was time.
The road ahead is going to be long... but God is with us.

:D

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28 October 2009 @ 09:08 am

Day 4- 28/10/09 Migraine Morning 9:09am

Are you alone? Feeling afraid? Have you ever felt that God is far off, somberly watching you from a distance?

Well, you my friends are wrong!

Immanuel

Yes, simply, "Immanuel", God is with us!
So we have to remember God is always near us, with us every step of the way.
He may not feel near us but He is!
Keep the faith!

I pray for a good day today, a day spent trusting in the Lord and holding on to faith that God will have a breakthrough in my life!
Regardless, when how why or what, GOD WILL MAKE A WAY, WHERE THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY.

Amen and praise God almighty!

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28 October 2009 @ 12:07 am

Day 3- 27/10/09 12:07am

Daryl's sleeping over cause we studied till late.
slow typing... he is sleeping and snoring, don't know if i can sleep.
hopefully he ain't pissed haha.

Tiring day of endless drowning in econs and math.
I DROWNED.
physically and mentally drained from swimming studying...

It was a tough day... thoughts of giving up what was set out for us to do were flashing through my mind.
Thoughts that told me to break my word for the temporal satisfaction that i can gain.
i'm a selfish man... thinking only of myself.
Its painful.. somehow today was more painful...
but i wanna keep going with God's plan....
I want to surrender all to the Lord and let him work his magic.
I want the LORD in my life!
I want you to grow too!
I want you to be fine!
I need to pray more.
Tired but it's just the start....
hurting but nothing comes easy... nothing comes without a struggle.
ALVIN! remember JESUS struggled for you!

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27 October 2009 @ 12:32 pm

Day 3- 27/10/09 12:34pm

After a strenuous swim in the morning, i'm about half dead now.
I can't focus.
I can't think.

My mind is distracted my flesh is unwilling but i'll press on in prayer and hold fast to the Lord.
Things somehow seem to be getting more difficult for me but i'll not let go of what i set out to do.
I'll become a man of the Lord, one worthy to call himself a christian.

The LORD is my ROCK.
The LORD is my SWORD.
The LORD is my SHEILD.
The LORD is my LIFE.

pray you, please be fine.
Draw strength from DADDY!
HE IS IN CONTROL!

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hopeful

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26 October 2009 @ 11:46 pm

Day 2 26/10/09 - 1146pm

Just from praying today.. i realised how self-centered i really can be.
i see it very clearly for myself.
God, thanks for showing this to me.

Once a decision is made.. a struggle comes
be it JC
be it Poly
be it deciding to swim or run even.
Our day to day activities bring about a struggle.
If we just decide to take the easy way out, how is that a struggle.

Plus, the devil is like a cat... prowling in the long grassy plains.. waiting for prey to slip near it and pounces on its meal.
The evil one will jump on any opportunity to corrupt us and destroy us.
In Genesis 4:1-12, we see how the devil turned Cain on his own brother Abel.
He didn't accept the 2nd chance God gave him.
Hold fast to the sacrifice that Jesus made for us! Appreciate it.. we take it too lightly!

Keep praying..
Keep talking to God..
He is there always..
Waiting for us to take the first step to him..
For he knows our sinful hearts do have good in them!
He knows we still can love, care, share and feel.
We sin but he still loves us.
"JESUS LOVES ME THIS I KNOW, FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO!"

AMEN

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26 October 2009 @ 09:20 am

Day 2- Another morning where coming out of bed is tough! (Oink)

Praying really does give us strength and relieves the pain on can feel.
It gives comfort and hope for a tomorrow!
Praying and trusting and letting God take control over your life gives hope in the long-term.
Man is too myopic!
"Feelings come,
Feelings Go."
"Fall in love?
Fall out of love."
This is why i made my decision and i'll have to stick to it!
A man isn't a man if he can't stick to his own word.
To love like Jesus and God loves us...
Thats what i strive for.
I know one can never be perfect like them but model after Jesus and be more like him.
Taking the ultimate sacrifice of bearing others' burdens on himself.
Knowing that it hurts himself and others are hurting, he bore the cross...
THE ULTIMATE SACRIFICE.

"Love is God and God is Love" - LOVE by Jaeson Ma

Keep it up!

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25 October 2009 @ 09:02 pm

Day 1 - 25/10/09 9:02pm

I've been thinking a lot again...
reasoning
questioning
scrutinizing

God is the pace maker
Proverbs 16:9
"A man's heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps"
We can plan.. but ultimately it's God's call.. listen out for his voice..
This could also be translated into pace.. God can set the pace for us.. he determines if we walk fast or slow....
keep praying and look out for signs and such.

Proverbs 16:2
"All the ways of man are pure in his eyes,
But the Lord weighs the spirits."
We always think that we are right! Yet, we are never 100% right!
We might say that we have good intentions.. but is the heart always so pure and righteous?
No, we shouldn't question a person's actions cause of what i said above because the Lord knows that there is STILL GOOD in us... that our sinful hearts still have the capacity to have Good Loving intent.
The Lord weighs our spirits... we are assured of His GRACE and COMPASSION.
Basically God deals accordingly!

To conclude:
We can plan,
We SHOULD plan.
BUT commit our plans unto the Lord!
"give them all, give them all to jesus!"
Surrender the man-made plans to the sovereign Lord!
Remember that things will be fine because DADDY IS IN CONTROL!

1) God is Good
2) God is in control
3) God will bring it to pass

1Cor 16:7
"For I do not wish to see you now on the way; but i hope to stay a while with you, if the Lord permits"

There are things i want to say... there are things i wish you could know now. But till then remember this verse.
I will stick to what i set out to do... i hope you can do the same.
it's not fair... but it's for the best and we both agreed to it.
We're still young... life is long.. what's a wait over God knows how long compared to the rest of life in God's light!
:) smile

Current Mood:

hopeful

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25 October 2009 @ 07:56 am

Day 1 - 25/10/09

It's only the first day, the first morning, the first hour i've been awake and i already think it's a struggle.

I guess that might be how unprepared I am.

God showed me what was right and what i should and i know i made the right decision and it's fair to us both.

God, show us the way... anchor yourself in our lives and draw us nearer to you.

It may not be easy, it will be a struggle for me but i don't want to relive a past mistake and bring you through it.

This might take anything from 2 months, 6 months, 1 year or even 2.

But its something that we must do.

Day 1... morning 8 am.- It's not easy.

God i pray you, take the wheel and drive amen

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28 August 2009 @ 04:08 pm

I need to learn to love
friends
family
enemies
myself
God

If you fail to love yourself, you fail to see life.

"Love is everlasting, it's the only thing you have when you die..."

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24 August 2009 @ 09:51 pm

I've lost all ounce of strength... This uphill battle ain't going no where
Falling back down sounds much better now

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24 August 2009 @ 12:05 pm

Another day where i woke up feeling i've nothing

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blank

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18 August 2009 @ 10:26 pm

once again... failed...
i cannot even look you in the eyes without hurting inside now.
i'm really sorry, i don't know what to do or feel or think anymore.

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sick

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16 August 2009 @ 10:21 pm

not looking forward to tomorrows epic fail...

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moody

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31 May 2009 @ 12:25 am

(SNSD) Girl's Generation

IT'S LOVE!!!- 9 wives!?! omg!!!

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09 April 2009 @ 12:34 am

thanks for everything...

the times that you spent trying to convince me i'm not as bad as i perceive myself to be.
the times that you spent making me laugh when i was bored or down
the times that you spent talking to me
the times that you spent hunting for songs to send to me
the times that you spent getting me lil things that brighten up my day

I'll remember you always, i never want to forget you, i hope i'll be back someday...
I'll miss you, i already do... i hate this but this is for the best i guess? :S :S :S
I'll remember the 3 emoticons too haha.
Don't forget me too, i know i won't.
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Current Music: The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

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22 March 2009 @ 05:24 pm

You whispered that you were getting tired
Got a look in your eye
Looks a lot like goodbye.
Hold on to your secrets tonight.
Don't want to know i'm ok with this silence
It's truth that i don't want to hear

You're hiding regret in your smile
There's a storm in your eyes that's been passing for awhile
Hold on to the past tense tonight
Don't say a word
I'm ok with the quiet.
The truth is gonna change everything.

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye
Lie lie lie.

Lie lie lie.

I know that there's no turning back.
If we put too much light on this we'll see through all the cracks.
Let's stay in the dark one more night.
Don't want to know i'm ok with the silence.
It's truth that i don't want to hear.

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
So look me in the eye
And lie lie lie.

Don't want to believe in this ending
Let the cameras roll on
Keep pretending
Tomorrow's all wrong if you walk away
Just stay

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye
And lie lie lie.

So lie to me and tell me that we're gonna be ok
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the day
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye
And lie lie lie.

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